“I have wiped the slate clean, No more reminders from…
Whitewashed
She always found it difficult to write in first person. To be the omniscient narrator was easy, she thought. To be the character that embodies an idea, easier. She lacked the prowess of tracking wavering thoughts in her voice. Words eluded her when she tried to narrate a story as the protagonist. She then stepped back (a practice she had mastered by now) and tried telling the story again. And this time, she could.
The minute she guised her feelings as someone else’s, there were no more barriers between her thoughts and words. She found the right verbs and used befitting adjectives. She wrote as an observer – of truths that found place within the very depths of her. She commented as a viewer – who could empathise with the joys and pains as her own. She wrote recklessly. She no longer had to tread with care.
She traced the plot with a sense of reckless abandon. She painted her most audacious actions with a stroke of compelling honesty. She made bare her darkest secrets because they were now not hers. She lent the fictitious character an air of conviction that stemmed from her very beliefs. She whitewashed her indulgences and vices with a veneer of cheap chalk and lime.
She lived in this whitewashed reality until cracks began to appear, revealing the naked brick and mortar.
(Lace top: Thrifted, Lace pants: Vintage, Sling: Kuwait, Ring: Swarovski)
Photography – Nikhil Nair
This post has been in my drafts for almost a month now. Considering all the flak I receive for not blogging too frequently, I realize how this is only a detrimental piece of information to share. But then I have always come to this platform only when that something in me has simmered for long enough and when I have something compelling enough to share. Besides, I have always been a slave to my heart’s whims and fancies. As a ‘good blogger’ I might be expected to post way more often, but then I’d much rather post only when I think I can touch your lives even if for a few moments with words and images that are worthy of your time.
Till the next post,
Kavya
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Iv always wondered..is it ur words or ur images that gets me back here again n again..Im still not sure..
I was missing ur posts wondering why..so many questions..with this one post u answered them all
love
It’s readers like you who motivate me to keep coming back to this space with images and corresponding words. Thank you so much for the appreciation and support. I truly feel indebted
I do love the different textures of both pieces, they work so well with each other.
Janey
http://www.jayguls.wordpress.com
Thank you so much Janey
Kavya… your words give me a high! Literally every single time! I love the way you write.. and you look great too btw
Good to see you back!
Coming from you, this indeed means a lot. Thank you so much
I just love your hair ! Looking absolutely gorg !
xoxo <3
http://www.littlemisssinner.com
http://www.youtube.com/MsShanayaSinner
Thank you, Shanaya
Wow you are so poetic ! Beautifully written… its so deep..I really loved it.
As for the outfit… I don’t see white and green mixed together a lot… its fresh and looks beautiful. And so does the fact that both have their own patterns but are far away from clashing. I love the harmony.
Swati @ The Creative Bent
Thank you so much, Swati. I’m glad you like what you see!
Those words… Ah! I think you are one of the few bloggers who manages to mix beautiful words with the right outfit. Nailed it right, yet again.
Much love
Diary of a Dancebee
Thank you so much, Priya. I try. Genuine comments like yours make my day. Thank you